Ok, so hello everyone - where to begin - this is something I have been wanting to do for about 8 years. Yup.  8, Years.  At a certain point I noticed I was becoming an outsider looking in, meaning work wasn't necessarily coming my way - though my skill level was beyond on point. So I had a choice to make - would I sit and cry or start really asking myself why do I love specific things.  At first - I had to go back to Post Modern Architecture, which I later found out was .. (lets just call it 'pomo')  what I was taking in when I was so young.   I always wondered why all this stuff around me FELT SO GOOD. But later in life after life happened and fallings out and all that jazz happened - I began to take a huge L. A big L. I deliberately chose to live with my mom - almost 30 - to do nothing but focus on my craft. Pathetic to most. All my friends from high school and even the same people I worked with in the industry were climbing and climbing and I was ...